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[25 Sep 2005|08:53am] |
I look at this picture in my hand
But this just isn't you
Was I to weak to understand
Or is this the real you?
Your uspset expression looks real
It's just making me wonder
Are your feelings truely real
cause in you're eyes theres only thunder
Are you thinking of me
Or is there someone else
I know this is your heart
But it's just not heart felt
will this make a happy couple
If you canstantly hide
Honesty travels in doubles
It must be equal on both sides
There's always a glitch in the system
always a problem in paradise
you always lie with out reason
and you speak before you think twice
Is everything you told me true?
is there a reason to worry?
was everything you said real?
Or just another made up story?
This i can promise till the day i die
With me theres no need to worry
I love honesty I won't hide
but this window is looking blurry
Every smile is from the heart
And every word I say is true
I swear on love i'll do my part
cause every second i think of you
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[25 Sep 2005|08:48am] |
I look at this picture in my hand
But this just isn't you
Was I to weak to understand
Or is this the real you?
Your uspset expression looks real
It's just making me wonder
Are your feelings truely real
cause in you're eyes theres only thunder
Are you thinking of me
Or is there someone else
I know this is your heart
But it's just not heart felt
will this make a happy couple
If you canstantly hide
Honesty travels in doubles
It must be equal on both sides
There's always a glitch in the system
always a problem in paradise
you always lie with out reason
and you speak before you think twice
Is everything you told me true?
is there a reason to worry?
was everything you said real?
Or just another made up story?
This i can promise till the day i die
With me theres no need to worry
I love honesty I won't hide
but this window is looking blurry
Every smile is from the heart
And every word I say is true
I swear on love i'll do my part
cause every second i think of you
Beth
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[10 Jul 2005|12:28pm] |
Hello Ladies and Gentlemen,
I am anouncing the....
Drum roll please...
10th day i have not see or spoke to my boyfriend... GRRRR
hahaha i got you all
oh and I've been writing alot of poetry lately...
None worth posting haha
I LOVE YOU ALL
Beth
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[08 Jul 2005|12:16pm] |
Hey ya'll!!
I can't wait till I come down to Naples.. and the two most wonderful people in my life come up to Ft.WHite... yayyyyy
I love you both.. You know who you are.
I might go to the river today... oh how fun... hehe in front of boys in bathing suits.. NOT a good idea.. haha
Love ya'll
Beth
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[04 Jul 2005|12:33pm] |
HooooraY!
Happy independence day!!!
I <3 *Matt*
Bethy Boo
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[02 Jul 2005|08:26pm] |
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Hey everyone
I gotsta boyeefriend
His name is Matt
*since June 27th*
He is 16
He is soooo cute..
I'm happy..
Well... How is everyone?
Hannah and Frankie Comin' up 24th-30th (I think)
I'm going down.. 17th -23rd (I think)
Biotch go to the mall I'll most likely be there.. With my lover, ***Hannah*** (Since i do not have a decent mall here)
Well I miss ya'll!!!!!
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[22 Jun 2005|10:25am] |
Hey everyone,
Summer sucks..
Does anyone know who Sun Kissed 4444 is?
I'm so bored, not much too say.
Things are fine i guess.
Beth
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[28 May 2005|10:02am] |
Hey everyone..
Wow I feel like I've grown up so much.. I don't feel like i need anyone to survive. I've become quite independant. I do miss ya'll so much.. I'm coming down in July and Hannah and maybe someone else is coming up here to hang for a week. When i go down there if ya'll wanna hang.. comment.. I love you all and miss you all..
EXCEPT DARBY haha sorry.. anyways.. Like i said ive grown up oh so much.. haha but i feel stronger and for people like Frankie and Hannah that said me and my sister fought to much.. she has become my best friend we talk about everything... EVERYTHING... Wow..
I LOVE YOU ALL
COMMENT AND TELL ME WHAT"S GOING ON..
Or comment to tell me if you miss me.
I LOVE YOU ALL
Liz
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[16 May 2005|08:18pm] |
I'm trying to write you a letter
Trying to show you how I feel
No matter what I write down
It's all fake, My words aren't real.
Paper balls fill the trash can
You're just a memory
I fake peice of my mind
Making my thoughts bleed
I've been missing you
Since the day I left
I'm just you're memory
Something more to regret
Beth
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[13 May 2005|05:55pm] |
Today I miss Krystal really bad..
Krystal! Hey.. I love yoU!!! I miss you terribly!!! I wish i could see you agian.. but i know i probably won't..
things have been okay lately
Frankie and Hannah i miss ya'll alot too!!!
*sloppy kisses to everyone*
Liz
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[12 May 2005|06:50pm] |
I'm sitting here thinking of him
My boyfriend's thinking of me
They aren't the same person
Although I know they should be
I'm fighting feelings for one
Begging others to stay
Making seeing you hard
for me in every way
I'm trying so hard to live
while feelings rip me apart
I'm trying to let things settle
Upon this once wounded heart
I'm trying to say
that things aren't well
I can't seem to breathe
In this temporary hell
This is the part where I confess
My feelings have been cheating on you...
--Beth
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[11 May 2005|09:43pm] |
God, all that shit i wrote last entry was bull i'm so fuckign dunb/ in love? broke my hearT? what??? haha.. anywyas i'm back to my old self again.. writing my poetry.... you know kind of getting back into my skin...
I love ya'll
Look at your face
Scarred and shattered
blood in crevaces so deep
look at my hands
scabbed and wounded
selling myself cause i'll never be free
please don't touch my heart
I'll bleed the love and tears we shared
cross my heart and hope to die
I'm dumb for thinking you'd ever care
look at my face
bruised and beaten
blood blsters inside a hole
look at your hands
brutally battered
wounded from tryign to steal my soul
you'll never get through again...
Beth
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[25 Apr 2005|05:16pm] |
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I watched you from far away
Your eyes, your smile, made my day
When we stared in class
It built a relationship of glass
With body language, we spoke
A little crush with some hope
Built to secret love exchange
We built this heart on a clear glass stage
Be very careful for it could brake
It's red and white with a heart-like shape
I stare at you with my love shown
Stained glass for your heart to own
By: Elizabeth James
For: Ryan (Before he broke my heart)
You broke my already broken heart
You stabbed it with a knife, My ribs spread apart
Your heart got me so lost in you
But I found, You lied about the truth
You make me sick with your little lies
I hope you feel my pain when you look in my eyes
I hope your guilt eats you alive
I hope your happiness is drown by my cries
My knuckles bleed
On my sadness, you'll feed
Your waiting for my pain to come
But it's come, It's here, I'm done
You lied with every word you said
I'm sorry, I'm hurt cause you messed with my head
WHy'd you have to hurt me all for her?
I'm sorry I'm not right for you,I'm sorry we're not together
I forgave you for all of everything you did
You did everything that my love forbids
You tell me I shouldn't be sad no matter what I do
Well I don't want to hear how bad I am at being perfect for you
You knew this would happen from the start
So why did you brake my already wounded heart?
We had no love
You used me well
You made me think you loved me
But that's my secret , I'll never tell
(I feel so mad for who I turned out to be Because i'm not what you wanted me to be)
All For Ryan...
Liz
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hi Ryan broke up with me.... wow this hurts.... For some girl named Joyce.... God this really hurts.. i really liked him... Fuck relatioships I'm just gonna stay single a while...
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[22 Apr 2005|04:14pm] |
Hello Today is a very good day
I have seen my boyfreind!!!!
I hopefully will be going to his concert tonight.Him and Ethan are playing tonight for.. I think an hour and a half..... We got in trouble 3 times today.. For PDA.lol, Anyways...
Well i have to go,
Liz
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[20 Apr 2005|10:22pm] |
Hey everyone,
I have been so bored and alone here.
I have a boyfreind finally, His name is Ryan. He is really sweet. He loves Sum 41. He has red and blue hair. He stole me from Levi. I like him alot. I can't say i love him.. Cause i don't know who i love, love just hurts. I wrote Frankie a fucking letter but she didn't write back. You Naples people suck. You never comment!
I love you all. I really mis you guys. The people here suck except for Ryan, Eden , ANd Amanda. Ethan looks JUST like the lead singer from My Chemical Romance. I met a kid named Alex Martin he is hott... But stuck up He has a fricken hotttttt hair cut and his lip pierced... but he looks kinda dirty to me.Oh well.. Frankie FUCKING WRITE ME BACK! Dude.. you guys would cry when you saw the guys i hang out with! THEY ARE SO HOTT!!!!! Love you guys... bye
Liz
PS SCHOOL IS HARDER WE GET 6 REPORT CARDS.
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[13 Apr 2005|09:58am] |
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HEy everyone i didn't write the last entry my sister did she thought it was her jounral but it was mine
WHILE IM HERE..
I met a kid named Levi.. My future boyfriend lol
He likes me! SCORE!
I have a new best freind named Eden she is friken awesome.. I don't really have anything else to say.. Bye
Liz
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[11 Apr 2005|06:10pm] |
Hey everyone,
Things are going great i guess..
I've been to school, met some pretty cool people! I met a kid named Levi, For those who don't know.. Derick broke up with me.. Yeah.. I understand though.. We'll each find our special someones though..
Levi is so awesome..
Anyway, There is nothing to do here.. We have to go to Gainsville to do mst of anything..
I wish i was home..
But then i wouldn't have met these most wonderous people!
Any way love you all
Bye
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